Hullo all.

I'm in a bit of a rut here. It's not caused by my illness, to those of you who know, it's a mental thing. I go through it during the winter times every year, regular as clockwork. It's usually not this bad, but due to my illness it's been exacperated.

In fact, I wouldn't have been able to muster up the energy to post this had it not been for the Dracula Musical score I bought on iTunes. It has slightly woken me up, and I'm sorry for not being able to attend to each of you personally and using my first journal entry to sleepybear!pityyawn as I call it. ;_;

(for those of you who are curious -you know who you are- I'll put what my illness is here so I don't have to go through all of our conversations, because then I fear you'll be left hanging for months. xD

SQUICKWARNING! LOOK AWAY IF MEDICAL CONDITIONS BOTHER YOU! THERE IS NO MORE MESSAGE AFTER THIS! RETURN TO GO COLLECT $200.

Ahem. My jaw is small. In the classical sense for those artists who draw faces, my chin itself is only about 2 centemeters short on each side. But this caused my sinuses to be pinched and unable to drain properly. This never bothered me before- it was never serious enough to cause me any harm in normal colds except I stayed in bed a day longer than most children. So I never even knew my sinuses were malformed until this year. Last summer I caught mono (from sharing tea-stirring spoons, not kissing for all the gossip mongers ) which caused my sinuses to flood with mucus. This lasted for a month and a half of lethargy and tempermental melencholy. But it eventually drained enough for me to get on with my schoolwork, much to my professor's happiness when I finally turned in the overdue work. Fast foreward to this year. I caught a common cold. This usually isn't a problem, but the mucus was still there from the mono. It hadn't even emptied halfway. So the mucus had nowhere else to go but back into my brain. Yes, the greyish wobbly bit betwixt my ears. HELL ON EARTH. It caused several outbursts of irrational temper. I almost hit a girl for drinking her water too loudly and I broke into silent frusterated tears when my teacher ate her habitual peanut-butter sandwich. This was very distressing, seeing as I've never been a violent person. Three doctors later, bingo. This doctor was fortunatly a specialist in sinuses especially my condition. And you know what? Here's a little tidbit-I'm SO GLAD I'm not a male. Guy's aparently get absceses (holes in their brain) from this but for some reason not girls.

So, long story short: _DAMN I'M GLAD I'M A GIRL_; this is nothing life threatening; I'm not trying to be rude; I haven't opened my computer in days except to lethargically click about on google searching heaven-knows what; I'm so terribly sorry for all those who I have made promises to- I am honored to have been in the discussion process that lead to the inspiration of sheer epicness and wonder, but by the time I rise from my hibernation I fear I shall be too late and that the world shall have fled before me on dainty wings of etheral speed. When I eventually become myself again I shall throw myself back into projects that still want me with joy and alacrity that they fully deserve.

Please don't hate me. I'm going back to sleep now.. X(